At work on Thursday, my drawer was over by $180. On Friday, it was short the same amount. The managers suspect foul play on my part, but I'm innocent and will maintain this stance no matter what happens. I spent the weekend waiting to hear back from a manager on whether I can return to work or whether I need to look for a new job.

I am very torn about this. On the one hand, I bitch about the job all the time and it would be something of a relief to be let go. On the other, I have so much riding on a steady paycheck that looking for a job would be something of a problem.

I returned to work today, well aware of how much is riding on my impeccability in terms of keeping myself together. For the moment, I'm glad to be employed.