Dear whomever...

I am a ghost. Not in the literal sense, though I may as well be. People ignore me and, in those rare moments when someone does acknowledge my existence, they consider me a burden.

Life is so full of disappointments, it's genuinely difficult to know how to react when something good happens. You expect people to be responsible. You expect people to be decent. You expect them to think.

If I post something tomorrow, then you'll know that I didn't have the spine to go through with it. I never do.

It's Christmas morning. Not much is going on. I've opened my presents (items of clothing, mostly) and now I'm here talking about it. I, honestly, have no energy to talk about at what point Christmas becomes just another day, but...

Kind of an afterthought, but I finished one of my scripts today. After I get some feedback from a trusted source, I might sell it next year. It's one of several I hope to complete/sell.

Well, I've finished my Christmas list. Yes, with ten days left. The reasoning behind this goes much deeper than simple laziness. It's because my family can't give me the things I really want (And asking for money doesn't quite cut it, since "you already have a job"). Things like:

- a job that I look forward to going to every day

- a loving girlfriend

- the time and money needed to travel the world

- my own place

- boundless confidence

I don't think this is too unreasonable.

Bucket list update: right next to 'three-way with redhaired brainiacs' is 'visit every place featured on "Diners, Drive-ins and Dives"'.

A schedule of events.

Okay, never mind the past. Here's what's up for the future (this is kind of a big deal as I hate making schedules like this; it puts pressure on me to get things done, which only encourages further procrastination):

January 10th (or 17th, depending on when Young Adult, The Artist and Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy are released in my hometown) - My favorite movies of 2011

January 17th - Random thoughts - the movies of 2011

January 24th - The Oscar nominations and what I think of them

January 31st - The film music of 2011 (this is a late post for two reasons: a. the soundtrack to Mission: Impossible - Ghost Protocol is set for release on the day I post my favorite movies and b. I'm nowhere near done acquiring and cataloging the soundtrack releases - new and old - of '11)

Well, that's all.

Two things happened at work that I felt like talking about.

- An annoying little brat came in with his grandmother. This punk was the whole package: running around, playing on the dividing ropes, asking stupid and annoying questions. I'm reminded of my theory that only stupid people have children...and yes, that includes my parents.

- I heard a cover of the "Hawaii Five-O" theme over the P.A. system. At first, I'm like, 'I didn't know that was a Christmas carol'. As more non-Christmas tunes filled the air, I was struck with the realization that they weren't playing Christmas music anymore. This doesn't happen until at least the 28th. Granted, hearing the likes of "(Simply Having) A Wonderful Christmas Time" and "Santa Claus is Coming to Town" performed by a vaguely racist-sounding Paul Robeson impersonator over and over will drive anyone bats, but I can't help but feel cheated not hearing Christmas tunes around this time of year.